Another week rolls by with little to talk about; I could complain about my sleep schedule being thrown for a loop, but reading back such a thing might actually fix the problem, yawn-inducing as the subject is…
Progress is being somewhat made on the art front; I’ve gotten my next round of Critical Role postcards printed and ready for ComicCon, and will be picking them up on Friday. Hopefully these will be just as big of a hit as they were in September last year, as these are a different batch of characters; I printed a bunch of last year’s ones as well, hopefully they will shift too. No chance of getting the ashcan origins issue of the Showcase done, I haven’t had nearly the time or energy to draw that, but it was very much in the “maybe” pile of stuff anyway. I’ve had to focus on the things I can complete that would at least give some more immediate financial relief, such as my paid D&D gig.
Any additional cash coming in right now will help, as it’s been quite an expensive month; having two kitty cats that need checkups is obviously a lot more pricey than just the one, and there’s also the additional food costs involved. I’ve also had to pick up an additional bill here and there, with the need for dice to stock the ComicCon table also requiring some investment. We’re really hoping for a big haul when ComicCon rolls around (only two weeks left to go!), though if last year was any indication, we should do just fine (fingers crossed).
All of this makes me keen to get back to creating; I still intend to pick up the Showcase and Magic Beans again next month, though potentially staggering out the update schedule a little. I was on the verge of burnout with the last Showcase issue, so reducing the upload schedule to twice a week might make it a little more manageable; it would mean the stories come slower, but I do have my mental health to consider. It’s not a set-in-stone decision, we’ll see how I progress.
It’s telling of me how as soon as I typed those words, I considered how staggering the schedule might allow me to insert updates of another potential project into my routine; this is how my mind works to destroy me from the inside out, people. There is so much I want to do, that any free time might hold potential for additional content; my inherent need to get my ideas out is inversely proportional to how much energy I actually have to spend on doing so. I think the past couple of months focusing on brainstorming and writing have let the other ideas rise to the top and compete for my attention, which doesn’t help when there are barely enough hours in the week as it is. Maybe when I find a day job that is more accommodating, or leave it behind entirely, I’ll have the time to do whatever I want; I’ll still need a decent office setup so that I’m not forced to work sitting up in bed like I currently do, the actual desk being overloaded with other stuff, so add finding a new living space to the other necessities, and now I’m being a broken record again.
Bottom line: as a creator, I want to create, and if something is preventing me from creating (whether that something is internal or external), I get frustrated. As such, to one day be able to create what I want, whenever I want, is the ultimate dream, even if it is just a pipe dream at best.
Ciao for now.