Bottom of the Deck – 2025/03/01

Wait, it’s been how long since I did a proper blog post?

Unlike some previous instances, my lack of full-length blog posts has been something that just sort of evolved organically out of doing the #gentlecomicshabit posts; with me posting something almost daily, I kind of didn’t have much to talk about in one extensive post like this. It’s also why you may not have seen a #gentlecomicshabit post in a few days: I’m running out of stuff to talk about.

Aside from me losing my job, and indeed because of it, I don’t have a lot of stuff that goes on in my life. I don’t have the financial security to take exciting vacations, most media I consume is easily streamed directly to my computer or phone so I don’t need to leave the house for entertainment, and there haven’t been a lot of major conventions happening yet this year. As such, I’m at home keeping myself busy while casting out my line into the endless sea of the job market, and the fish aren’t exactly biting.

That said, as an introverted, undiagnosed-but-highly-likely neurodivergent individual, keeping myself busy/entertained has never been difficult. The #gentlecomicshabit, while having slowed down somewhat, has nonetheless gotten me back into the swing of drawing, which was always the intent behind it. Magic Beans has made a return with weekly updates, and the pages of the Fifth Ace superhero universe (I should come up with an easier name for that…) are chugging along; the first issue is fully scripted, thumbnailed and lettered, with nearly half the pages penciled and counting. I don’t know if I’ll have it finished before my birthday, but that is a goal to work towards.

In terms of other art, I’ve been keeping an eye on several accounts that I follow with regards to art challenges and throwing my hat in the ring on as many as I can handle, whether it’s for original characters, fan art, pose references, anything; a lot of people check out these things, so it’s good for exposure. For example, there’s a new March Amalgam challenge making the rounds on socials; I had a lot of fun with last year’s challenge and I’m already several pieces ahead on this one. By the end of the month, it’ll be one more box off my Art Bingo card for 2025.

On top of all that, combining my art with my income issues, I’m in the process of refining my Ko-Fi page; soon I’ll be doing a proper relaunch with subscription tiers, where I intend to have exclusive rewards for anyone willing to sign up. I should have everything in order closer to when the first issue of the Fifth Ace superhero ‘verse (seriously, it needs a better name…) is complete; I’m planning for WIP previews, bonus artwork and pinups, as well as discounts on the full issues when purchased through the Ko-Fi store. It’s going to be a lot of work, but again, it’s not like I’m going anywhere right now.

That about sums everything up so far, I’m going to get some food.

Ciao for now.

#gentlecomicshabit – 18 minute comic

There’s only so many hours in the day that I can devote to scouring the job market before I get up in my own head; how fortunate that my habit building is paying off:

I’ve been able to spend several hours a day on my upcoming comics, but I want to keep this habit going at least every other day, especially if a day comes when I’m too worn out to work on the other comics. It may get to the point where I use this habit slot to specifically work on smaller stuff like Magic Beans; I’d likely use it as my cut-off point for the day.

#gentlecomicshabit – 17 minute comic

Last night, my tabletop group met for the first time in nearly seven months; life just kept getting in the way, and we haven’t been able to meet consistently since then.

I’d almost forgotten how much I enjoy taking on the role of Dungeon Master for my friends, especially ones with such great chemistry. Barely a session goes by where we don’t get some new kind of in-joke forming from their crazy antics, which I’m am only too happy to facilitate.

#gentlecomicshabit – 14 minute comic

One of the blocks on my Art Bingo card for this year is a redraw of an art piece from 10 years ago or more. Looking back at some of my art from 2015 and before was really a great indication of how far I’ve come since then.

This isn’t the artwork I’ve been redrawing; if I’d simply pasted the actual art in this comic, it wouldn’t have taken 14 minutes, so in order to keep with the spirit of the exercise, this is just an allegory.

#gentlecomicshabit – 13 minute comic

Something that I resolved to keep in mind this year, is to always acknowledge when I’ve accomplished something, even if it’s something small; whether it’s a piece of art, a particularly grueling workout, or a household chore, I take note of when I’ve done well.

In my current state of mind, those are the kind of things that keep me going when I feel like the world is out to get me.

Bottom of the Deck – 2025/02/08

Anyone who saw my #gentlecomicshabit post yesterday will know what the big event of the week is; for those who didn’t, there’s no beating around the bush:

I’m unemployed again.

My probationary period with the company came to an end, and they decided that the position they had tried to carve out for me wasn’t a good fit with the organization as a whole, and as a result there was no longer a place for me there. While they acknowledged my talent in some areas and pointed out my difference in tastes elsewhere, it didn’t matter in the end because there just wasn’t enough for me to do that could justify my continued employment.

I’m not going to lie: this sucks. I don’t know if the full weight of it hasn’t hit yet, or if I’m just numb to the idea of being let go at this point, but I’m just feeling adrift at the moment. I didn’t get a lot of sleep last night, got up with a raging headache and was generally out of sorts all morning; thankfully some food, some meds and a nap helped with that by the end of the day, plus my workout involved a lot of shadowboxing in order for me to relieve some stress. No comic upload alongside this blog, call it a skip day, I’ll have something new tomorrow.

On Monday, I’ll be going into the office one more time, just to fill out all the necessary paperwork, and then it’s back into the job market for me. I already have a few ideas where to start, as well as some friends and family that can hopefully point me in the right direction to find something new. On the other hand, since I’ll be at home all day, it’ll be a good opportunity to keep building my portfolio; I doubled down on writing the last time, now I’ve go no excuse not to go all out on art.

To that end, I want to start frequenting my local library at least a few times a week. As much as I enjoy being at home with the cats and having the fridge almost within arms reach, such things are a major distraction, and I think I could get a lot done by spending three or four hours in a quiet, office-like environment instead.

No time to sit on my laurels like before; three months of employment is nowhere near as exhausting as four years without a significant break, so this weekend will be my only grace period. Come Monday, the real work begins.

Ciao for now.